where the heck has my inspiration gone? seriously. i can’t find it. i go about my days doing my usual housework, but i’m not getting any joy out of turning a toddler tornado wreck into a neat living space. i’ve had my Better Homes and Gardens cookbook open to the “Whole Wheat Bread” page for days. i want to teach myself to [finally] make yeast breads, but i just can’t gather the inspiration and motivation to do so.
on a whim as i was picking up a few library holds, i snatched up a book called “101 Ways To Use Your First Sewing Machine”. they had it displayed so prettily on a table, nestled among other DIY books. honestly, i think it was that amazing pink shoe on the cover that caught my eye, but once my brain processed the shoe and decided i’d like it better in lavender, it told me that i should get it so i could maybe learn to use my $350 sewing machine. it was a gift from MIL 6 years ago… i took a round of sewing lessons, and even asked for her help (which she magically never gave, and i never bothered to ask for again) but i never really got around to learning how to use it, other than a basic stitch. there are so many bits and bobs and different stitches on it, that i really do hate to see it go to waste. this book is so detailed with the bright, close-up pictures that maybe even a ninny-head like me who only grabbed the book off the shelf because of the shoe on the cover could learn a thing or two from it.
i got that book a few days ago, and so far i’ve done nothing but leaf through it while eating lunch one afternoon. i did find some cute ideas, but i have yet to put any of them into motion.
i think i am going to blame the weather for my lack of motivation. it’s cold. it’s grey. and once again, [despite the blooming flowers and lovely 60 degree temperatures] there is snow in the forecast. it may even be snowing right now… i don’t know. i’m too depressed about the idea of snow again to bother looking out the window.
i’ve also been attempting to put a few of my ideas for a custom blog design on paper (i am sick and tired of saying “i like this one, but i don’t like this about it”) but haven’t gotten very far in the way of actually getting it on the computer where it needs to be. i’m not very good with all this microchipping stuff, and if i try to do too much at one time my ears bleed.
maybe it’s just shell-shock from canceling our cable. yes, i no longer have cable television. who knew we got so many free channels locally??? the good news is, we’re saving $40 a month, and my children are watching less television, and listening to music more. now that half the shows i regularly watch are no longer accessible, i also have more time to do things such as clean, sew, and cook… if i could just find the motivation to do so.
i am UNinspired, UNmotivated, and absolutely sick of it.
send me some motivation… pleeeeease???
