finally, i can blog… but it’s not about anything pleasant.
my life isn’t terrible. i have a wonderful husband whom i love, and who loves me. i have two great kids who are so freaking cute they make my heart hurt every time i look at them. i have a decent relationship with my parents, and my MIL is apparently allergic to my presence. my life is good, but sometimes the weight of other things just drags me down.
this week? it’s my face. my face is broken out in huge painful zits that has me contemplating medication if the Proactiv i just ordered doesn’t work. it’s also the weight of my responsibilities and my sick children. i have two hacking, coughing sick and miserable children that i can’t do anything for. even my Tivo is on the fritz this week, recording only half of each show i had scheduled.
the icing on the cake was this morning. i was already lamenting the numbers on the scale, but when i went to put on my favorite pair of jeans i couldn’t get them over my fat thighs. if i hadn’t been working out regularly, i would tell myself it’s my own fault, vow to work more, and get over it. but i have been working out regularly. i’ve been doing Yoga once a week, and i’ve been trying to be healthy. apparently not healthy enough. i had to pack away the jeans i was allowed to buy in celebration of my baby-weight loss. how fucking sad. my bras are too big, my jeans are too small, my face looks like it’s broken out in chicken pox, and it’s so goddamn cold all the time i want to do nothing more than retire into a nice warm kitchen filled with the smells of baking chocolate.
i’m just having a bad month.
i’ll get over it.
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…i have completely neglected the internet. i just haven’t felt like putting forth the brain power it takes to keep myself “in the know”. this morning when i woke up, i had over 100 blog posts to catch up on in my Google Reader.
…both of my kids have unexpectedly fallen victim to the coughing-snot-monster. after finding my daughter with a foreign pacifier in her mouth in the Y daycare last Thursday, i’m counting my blessings that that’s all they’ve developed so far.
…i’ve come to the conclusion that despite my workout routine, i am still indeed getting fat. i love food.
…i made the final decision to try Proactiv for my face. i’m not a goddamned teenager anymore, and there is no end in sight with the acne. i will document my proactiv journey and let you know if it works.
…my lower back pain has tripled. i sometimes like to blame it on the partially fused lower vertebra i was born with, other times i like to blame it on a horrible night’s sleep. whether i’m blaming it on Yoga, cycling, or being on my feet too long with huge boobs, it still hurts. and it still sucks.
…my daughter pee-pee’d in the potty for the first time. don’t get too excited, i just let her sit on it naked while her night-time bath is filling. i don’t think she realized what she did, nor do i think we will begin serious potty training any time soon.
…i officially became known as “mom” to everyone in the house. now, no matter what i am doing or where i am, i can almost always here “mom! mom! mom!” being called from every corner of the house. most often i will answer with a very annoyed “what?!” and will hear “obadowhya” in response. then i hear a chorus of “mom! mom! mom!” for the rest of the day. it’s utterly adorable and heart melting while being extremely annoying at the same time.
…i completely ran out of thing to blog about. bummer.
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